I recently finished reading a book called
Mainline Or Methodist?, by Dr Scott Kisker.
The title of my journal has to do with my own trials in attempting to live the life of a Methodist, of a follower of the Lord Jesus Christ. I had thought that my travails were my own, and that there were other Methodists (be they Free, United or any other stripe) who did follow that 'method', but this book had me thinking. The discipline of the United Methodist Church has certainly become lax in the days since it was the Methodist Episcopal Church of Francis Asbury, Peter Cartwright or Lorenzo Dow, and this book illustrates that perhaps there are far more 'methodless' Methodists out there than simply me.
With this in mind, I find myself wondering how much discipline I can bear--and how much is required. It is a matter of counting the cost all over again, of choosing again to go beyond what it comfortable in seeking the Lord's face. I don't know which decision I will make at any given moment, and it is a moment-by-moment discipleship, but I pray that it is toward the Lord and not away.
I also wonder how we can restore Methodism to its halcyon days, when it was first charged with (as Wesley put it) its "grand depositum," to "reform the continent and spread scriptural holiness across the lands." I think discipline must be restored, and accountability. Dr Kisker thinks that it would require the restoration of the class/band concept, small accountability groups where everyone was expected to live by the rather-strict General Rules and to be open to confess their own sins while responding in love, grace and forgiveness to the sins of others.
I know my church has Renovare Spiritual Formation groups that meet every week, and I wonder whether this would not serve the same function. I wonder, and I wish they didn't meet so early in the morning (6:45 AM). I may drag myself out of bed early one morning and go. I--the true me that has been redeemed by the Lord--want to follow where my Lord bids me. As the old hymn puts it, "Nearer, my God, to thee / E'en though it be a cross that raiseth me."